I don’t understand

You don’t love me

You don’t hate me

You keep me around like I’m a clown

Still in love

Still feeling down

Regretting the days we used have

Regretting the times we used to play

Regretting the ways we used smile

Just regretting what we used to have

Regrets, regrets, regrets

My life an ever repeated mess

Thinking it will get better

Only to find parts of me becoming less and less

How do you live knowing I am dying

How do you live knowing I am trying

Not hard enough

Not even trying

Why can’t you just hate me instead

Why can’t you just leave me dead

I don’t want you to go

I didn’t want to say it so

Life was better with you

My life had meaning

My life had a home

Now I see you in my dreams

While I’m lying awake screaming

My head is full

My head taking its toll

The borders of my sanity failing, dropping

The borders melt, melt, melt

Why can’t you hate me

What makes me change how I feel

Nothing will

Why can’t I hate you

I never will

I love too much

I never will